Angel

no im not a weirdo...or in some satanic cult...if thats what ur thinking...i guessin im learning to appreciate art in whatever form it is expressed in...even if its blood on the wall! u can surely interpret it(this pic) in many ways...its exactly the way i feel..sometimes i feel like im shouting those words out and there are times it like the words are directed to me...

weird..

Everybody Hurts - R.E.M

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone

DeviantART

recently my fren introduced me to deviantART...ok la im slow i didnt know bout it...kinda cool...she sent me this(hehehe some guy sent her this)..had some meaning to me..

please wait for me

theres more than what you let on when you look at me
and tonight i had to ask you…
do you love me…
you told me that you didnt know
but im almost sure that you do
i can tell from the way that you touch me
from the way that you look at me
from the way that you pull my hair out of my face
it makes me fall almost in love
everytime you look into my eyes
that deep look because i know that its there
i know that love is there
and i know that you are everything that i want
you asked me if i loved you too tonight
and i had to say not yet
because i dont know if i can ever love you
im too scared inside
i dont know if i can follow through with it
but i will let you know
that i am going to try
with everything thats inside of me
i want to love you
just please…
wait for me…

Where the hell are the pharmacists?

Was listening to the radio on the way to work just now and the topic of the availability of pharmacists at pharmacies was discussed. Apparently the DJ had a migraine and when he went to the pharmacy the pharmacist wasn’t there!!!!!
Many callers actually called in to complain and relate their own experiences with the MIA pharmacists. It’s great to be a retail pharmacist. I too wanna venture into that area after working as a clinical pharmacist…why? There are shifts and the working hours are flexible…but aren’t u supposed to be at work especially at peak time? I bet most of us have experienced going to the pharmacy the pharmacist wasn’t there!!! It’s a pharmacy god damn it! the pharmacy profession got a good bashing on air...and yes I did feel the pinch too...but oddly enough I do agree man...the pharmacy profession is going to the pits as more n more pharmacists are actually only thinking of making money and not the very essence of the profession which is to provide service to the community...helping people man. This happens in franchise pharmacies and not independent ones…why? I mean don’t the independent ones lose out to the numerous chain outlets of the franchises and thus they should be the ones who want earn a quick buck or two…Seriously I’m quite embarrassed to be actually associated with this bunch of unethical people.

Some callers made good points...like for instance why does a pharmacist work 9 to 5 at some retail pharmacies when the general public actually finishes work at 5!! One person suggested getting the enforcement which is the National Pharmaceutical Control Bureau, to check on pharmacists…not only in the control of drugs but in the ethics and morality of the pharmacists…check in on whether they are actually at work and whether they are performing their job description. May be go as an undercover customer like suggested by a caller. I was sad to hear the listeners saying that every time they got to the pharmacy all the pharmacists say is what do u need and asks them to fill in their particulars in the Poison Book….oh my god!!! Where is the counseling man? We are not mere dispensers’ la…that makes me sick…I remember when my friends and I did our internship in UMMC…we were stationed at the out patient for a brief period n were surprised to find out that most of the people there in fact dispensers and not pharmacists. But the worst thing was that most of them didn’t do any sort of counseling…and I bet the head pharmacists were surprised n u could say a lil embarrassed when my friends and I questioned the function of a pharmacists in the outpatient.. And why people weren’t at least given minimum counseling? And all he could say is that they wanna minimize the waiting period for other patients and most of the patients know how to take the medication We understand that after a long long wait for their medication, people don’t want to hear some fella saying “take this like this…bla bla” especially if they have been taking the medication for years…but isn’t it our duty? Don’t they have a conscience? I mean handing out medication and expecting and assuming the patients to know what to do? My best friend once told me, “assumptions are the mother of all fuck-ups!!!” aint he right..

I didn’t agree with certain things the callers had to say. One caller said if the pharmacist is not in, why not get the retail assistant to dispense the medicine and get the customer to fill in the “book”…the “book” is for controlled medication la…haiyo…and only pharmacist who have a Type B licence can dispense such medication my dear…but cant blame the public cos may be they don’t know la…
Another guy called and said why the hell are pharmacies selling other things besides medication? This is a sticky topic… why can’t they sell things like shampoo n toothpaste esp. if they are the medicated one or for special conditions…where else are u gonna get those things huh? Being a pharmacist is to actually ensure the well being of the community which includes personal care like hygiene etc and ensuring the quality of life…so why can’t pharmacies sell these items? I do admit the community pharmacies are in fact a business la that’s why they are known as “retail” pharmacies…so that’s why they do sell other personal care items like make-up and hair dye…the callers were complaining that they are taking business away from the normal sundry shops…but c’mon people are wise enough to make their own decisions….isn’t it convenient to go to the pharmacy n buy your vitamins n also your shampoo n stuff…I mean its personal choice. the caller, “male” I believe, was complaining that Kedai Ah Chong’s shampoo will be cheaper…so go and buy ur shampoo from there la wei…doesn’t he know that pharmacies do have promotions and sales!!! And the prices are reasonable? Sheesh…I just feel u can sell whatever that is inline with personal well being. I personally kinda not like the concept of selling food items in abundance especially if they are unhealthy…I mean if its food items like Goats Milk formula(which is good for asthma patients but stinks as helll!!!), special infant formula.. etc then its fine…not snacks la..


It’s quite sad listening in to the show today and really wanted to call in and defend my kind…the ethical bunch of us… it saddens me to cos when we actually study to become pharmacists we are taught ethics and the roles of a pharmacist but I guess at the end of the day the "reason" why people wanna become pharmacist is based on the individuals’ mindset. Meeting up with the gals this Saturday for Mel’s bday…this will definitely be the topic of discussion…hmm may can ask Kim to do something since she is in the bureau …hahah im talking like she is in charge or something!!! All I know is that my friends n I have vowed and promised to each n ourselves what kind of pharmacists would we like to become and honestly the temptation of money may cause a few to breach that contract we made to ourselves…but I know ill never…I just wanna be a good pharmacist.. I really do…so hurry the hell up with the damn posting!!!

This was too sweet not to post....

this i found when i was browsing thru blogs of the someone Snowflame knows...omg so bloody sweet....n since im wrecked with emotions rite now...wat the heck!!! yes i agree we need more men like this in the world!!



POEM 1:
I love you every second,
every minute of the day.
I love the way you look
at me in that very special way.
I even love the way you sulk
when we cant agree.
Because loving you has brought
a world of happiness to me.
So today as we remember the
day we joined together,
i know our love will forever grow
and we will last forever.

POEM 2:
Together,we cared enough to
face our problems.
We loved enough not to let
each other go.
And now we are even
stronger because we have
gone through so much.
I sometimes worry about
the future but with you
by my side the future
seems so much brighter.
Together we will face all
obstacles with confidence,
because we already know
our relationship can endure
even the worst of times.
You Are The Love Of My Life

Desperate Housewives

i finally got to see the pilot!!! been waiting so long...i loved it...i think im gonna get addicted to this series wei...its like Sex in the City for married women...
the story is narrated by Mary Alice who shot herself one day( for reason that will be uncovered throughout the show) and she lets us in on the secret lives of the cast...

"There's Susan Mayer (Teri Hatcher), the divorcee and single mom who will go to extraordinary lengths for love; Lynette Scavo (Felicity Huffman), the ex-career woman who traded the boardroom for boredom, mixed with moments of sheer panic as the mother of four unmanageable kids; Bree Van De Kamp (Marcia Cross), the Martha Stewart on steroids, whose family is about to mutiny; and Gabrielle Solis, the ex-model with everything she's every wanted – a rich husband, a big house – so what is she doing with John, the 17-year-old gardener (Jesse Metcalfe)? And there are her neighbors, including serial divorcee Edie Britt (Nicollette Sheridan), whose romantic conquests have everyone buzzing.Then there are the men: Hunky new neighbor Mike Delfino (James Denton), a supposedly widowed plumber who has Susan and Edie vying for his attention; Rex Van De Kamp (Steven Culp), who's just told Bree he wants a divorce; Gabrielle's better half, Carlos (Ricardo Antonio Chavira), who figures he bought his wife a $15,000 diamond necklace, so she should do whatever he tells her; as for Mary Alice's newly-widowed husband, Paul (Mark Moses), there must be a reason why he's acting so suspiciously – and why he's digging up the pool in the middle of the night!"



the cast is hot u gotta admit that...Teri Hatcher...oooo la la...check out the pic i got of her...bloody freakin hot wei...and for those of u who saw Oprah...yes yes the stipper moves on this gal is flaming man!!!




n the garderner...ooo sexy , Jesse Metcalfe





the thing i like bout it is that it uses humour in everything.. a dark kinda humour to actual things that may happen in our daily lives...i guess its easier to watch something true in a lighter note...there was one scene where one of the gals said "Everyone has moments of desperation..if we can face them head on, then we know how strong we are"...that clicked...kinda thiking which desperate housewives i kinda click with...no no im not married...but their personality wise..we'll see...

cant wait till the next episode... catch it on Star World every tuesday at 9 pm...

ROCK STAR - INXS

happen to catch this show called Rock Star- INXS last night on Star World(Channel 70) on Astro. really cool....even better than American Idol i tell u..
15 undiscovered talents from across the world are competing to become the new lead singer of INXS, which one of the world's most successful rock bands. Apparently its lead singer died sometime back(sorry la i didnt know)...and so the winner will get to go on tour with the band n record an album....how cool is that?




the judges are obviously the band members themselves and Dave Navarro from Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Jane's Addiction or better known to me as Carmen Electra's husband..he is a hottie..but he is supposed to be more like a mentor to the contestants..



all 15 of the contestants will be living in some mansion, basically getting used to the pampered life of rockstars...drinking champagne, eating choc covered strawberries(yummy!) etc

supposedly we, the viewers from all around the world can vote online...check out the website for more details http://rockstar.msn.com/home




i have to honestly say most of the performers are really really good...different stlyes and tones...this show is incredible...cos all of them have talent!!!! there was this one guy, Migs who sang Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana and sounded really bad...i mean cmon only Kurt Hottie can do it la...but suprisingly he got the crowd going with his energy and the song like duh! another guy, J.D, who looked like he was possessed or something n touched himself in between some body spasms:) the gals are good too man...some r hot!!! i liked Daphna...but supposedly my dad said the 1st performer Jordis was really good...i missed her performance... i didnt like Tara's voice..
one gal, Suzie, forgot when to come in at the begining of the song and even forgot her lyrics but they let her stay cos of her voice and voted off Dan instead!!
and the coolest part is that dont really have breaks in between contestants...the just come out and rock on...and the stage with the audience really potrays a live concert...so thats an added bonus too...

Dahpna...she is so cool..an emotional rockstar...they were all jamming at the mansion n on the spot she sings of her dad that passed away...she sounded great n then she cried!!! poor baby...






anyway tune in tonight and thurs at star world i think round 8 pm or so... they r showing it live...trust me...it will be great...esp for u rockers out there:)
i kinda hope a gal wins hehe...

My Love for You is Real

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions.
The way that you care and show such devotion,
the way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is were I want to be.
The way that I feel when your by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

- Scotty Wright –

Wish it was this easy...

*SMS FROM GOD...........*

GOD: Hello. You called me.

I, Me, Myself (IMM): Called you? No, who is this?

GOD: This is God. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat with you.

IMM: Sure, I pray. Just makes me feel good.
Actually, am busy now. In the midst of something, you know.

GOD: What are you busy with? Ants are busy, too.

IMM: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic.It's rush hour all the time.

GOD: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

IMM: But I still can't figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

GOD: Well, I wanted to help you resolve your fight for time by giving you some clarity. I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

IMM: Tell me, why has life become so complicated?

GOD: Stop analysing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

IMM: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

GOD: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because the act of worrying has become a habit. That's why you are not happy.

IMM: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

GOD: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

IMM: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

GOD: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

IMM: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

GOD: Diamonds cannot be polished without friction.Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials. With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

IMM: You mean to say such experience is useful?

GOD: Yes. Experience is a hard teacher, though. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

IMM: But still, why should we go through such tests?Why can't we be free from problems?

GOD: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

IMM: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.

GOD: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

IMM: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction.

GOD: Success is relative, quantified by others. Satisfaction is absolute, quantified by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfyin than knowing you rode ahead.

IMM: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here? I don't know the answers.

GOD: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

IMM: How can I get the best out of life?

GOD: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

IMM: Sometimes my prayers are not answered.

GOD: There are no unanswered prayers. Remember you will always get what you need when you need it, NOT necessarily what you want. Therefore at times the answer is NO.

IMM: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I think I understand now and I will try to be less fearful.

GOD: Keep the faith and drop the fear. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.And remember my Child, I am always with you! Call me anytime you want to chat!



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